|Respondent Type: Anonymous Response ||Collector: Young Male Abused by Older Female Collector (Web Link)|
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|Response Started: Friday, August 17, 2012 5:21:50 PM ||Response Modified: Friday, August 17, 2012 5:41:19 PM|
1. Because this subject matter can veer into taboo subject and confessions, it is completely anonymous. Absolutely no personal information is being gathered about you - only your responses to these questions - not even the I.P. address of your computer.
My hope is this freedom will enable you to unload your shame and allow others to see they are not alone. Please come up with a nickname to hide your identity in the event I read your responses on the show. If you are feeling suicidal PLEASE call the Suicide Prevention Hotline 800-273-8255.
2. Choose any of the following that apply
|I am a male who has been seduced by a much older female|
3. Please describe what happened and the ages of those involved. If it is a fantasy describe what you would like to happen and the ages of those involved in the fantasy.
|When I was 15 I got really drunk with a group of 25 year olds to the point of blacking out. The only thing I remember is losing my virginity by getting rode by a girl while i was half passed out.|
4. If something happened, did you ever tell anyone? Did you think it was normal? Do you believe it has had any affect on you?
|Yes, I told a close group of friends. I didn't think it was normal I almost think it was a form of rape, but at the time I didn't entirely not like it. I still fantasize about older women to this day. That might stem from that incident.|
5. Remembering these things, what feelings come up? Sadness, anger, regret, sexual excitement, fondness, longing, shame, etc.
|sexual excitement and longing maybe.|
6. Do you feel any damage was done, it was innocent and natural, or somewhere in between?
|possibly i'm not really that sexually confident I have a hard time initiating sex even with my girlfriend of 4 years.|
7. If you have never experienced one of the above situations, and it is only a fantasy, how does that fantasy make you feel? Do you feel it is something that might happen some day?
|yeah it's a fantasy that i might see happening one day|
8. What best describes the environment you were raised in?
9. Have you ever been the victim of sexual abuse outside of events described here?
|Some stuff happened but I don't know if it counts as sexual abuse|
|an older neighbor use to rub up against me almost dry hump from the front, i thought we were wrestling... very foggy memory|
11. Are you gay, straight, bisexual or asexual (not interested in either sex)?
13. If you broke any laws, did anyone ever find out?
14. Do you have any comments or suggestions to make the Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast better?
|nope love the show, recently been going through a depression i have never felt this way before i almost feel like im going crazy and this show helps a lot, you have no idea.|