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Respondent Type: Anonymous Response  Collector: Young Male Abused by Older Female Collector (Web Link)
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Response Started: Saturday, September 28, 2013 1:41:19 PM   Response Modified: Saturday, September 28, 2013 2:17:20 PM
1. Because this subject matter can veer into taboo subject and confessions, it is completely anonymous. Absolutely no personal information is being gathered about you - only your responses to these questions - not even the I.P. address of your computer. My hope is this freedom will enable you to unload your shame and allow others to see they are not alone. Please come up with a nickname to hide your identity in the event I read your responses on the show. If you are feeling suicidal PLEASE call the Suicide Prevention Hotline 800-273-8255.
Rainbow Dash
2. Choose any of the following that apply
I am a male who seduced a much older female
3. Please describe what happened and the ages of those involved. If it is a fantasy describe what you would like to happen and the ages of those involved in the fantasy.
At age 16 I my mother died all of a sudden. With my father mostly gone I began spending more time at one of my friend house where I begin a friendship with his mother. At the time she was 43 years old and our friendship was strictly platonic. She was kind of a mother to a whole group of friends but about a year after my mother died she started taking more interested in me. In the beginning it was small stuff such as taking me to lunch or buying small purchase like clothing, but as time passed the purchase became more expensive and she begin taken me on trip with her. Our relationship during this time became more physical as well. We started off with innocent massages (backrubs) and it would progressively moved to genital rubbing and eventually to sexual intercourse.
4. If something happened, did you ever tell anyone? Did you think it was normal? Do you believe it has had any affect on you?
Years later I would tell my therapist about this. But is still something that I am shamed of.
5. Remembering these things, what feelings come up? Sadness, anger, regret, sexual excitement, fondness, longing, shame, etc.
Shame, regret and sadness.
6. Do you feel any damage was done, it was innocent and natural, or somewhere in between?
Damage was done. (I will leave it that that)
7. If you have never experienced one of the above situations, and it is only a fantasy, how does that fantasy make you feel? Do you feel it is something that might happen some day?
8. What best describes the environment you were raised in?
Pretty Dysfunctional
9. Have you ever been the victim of sexual abuse outside of events described here?
Yes and I never reported it
10. What gender are you?
Transgender Male to Female
11. Are you gay, straight, bisexual or asexual (not interested in either sex)?
12. How old are you?
13. If you broke any laws, did anyone ever find out?
14. Do you have any comments or suggestions to make the Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast better?
Keep doing what your doing. It's a great show. I try to catch it when I can.