Thoughts keep circling in my head, I can't make them stop
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I don't think I'm worthy of love
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I have nightmares
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Fears about the world ending, hell, karma or other punishment
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Fear of making mistakes
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Shame for having participated
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Difficulty making decisions
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Sense of dread
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Anxiety and panic
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Guilt for having left the group
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Guilt for having left people behind
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Guilt for living / enjoying life
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An internalized voice criticizing or policing me
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Feeling alone, missing community
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Strong beliefs and inner convictions that I didn't choose
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Feeling responsible for others and their needs
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Lack of boundaries, not sure when someone is violating mine
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Difficulty connecting with other people
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Difficulty with sexuality and physical closeness
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Difficulty trusting others
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Difficulty finding a job or being able to keep it
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Issues with authority at the workplace or elsewhere
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Difficulty speaking up and not letting others take advantage of me
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Suicidal thoughts
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Exhaustion
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Lack of education
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Stress from family still in the group
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No sense of who I am, my identity outside of the group
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Feeling powerless, lack of control
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Something triggers me and I have flashbacks
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I'm afraid that someone will come after me / I feel watched
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Difficulty talking about what happened / making sense of my experience
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I feel depressed and find it difficult to function
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I am very angry, there's so much rage
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I have a hard time connecting to my emotions
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Sense of grief and loss
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I question my reasoning, how I make decisions
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I feel compelled to do certain actions, I can't stop myself
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I put myself down
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I miss feeling chosen and special
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It's all or nothing - I don't seem to find middle ground
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I feel like I have no future without the group
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I still think in us-versus-them terms, who is the enemy now?
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I look for absolute truth and instant solutions for my troubles
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I cannot let go of people, even when they hurt me or are toxic
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I daydream or just drift off, disconnect from my feelings
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I cannot feel my body
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I feel overwhelmed by my emotions, like I am drowning
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I feel like I have to be productive all the time, difficulty relaxing
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I flinch when someone is loud or yells
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I don't feel safe
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