The Beginnings of ABDL

Being an Adult Baby/Diaper Lover is not something that suddenly happens. With a lot of people understanding that ABDL is effectively an ‘identity’, it is likely that it has been the case since actual infancy and appearing in the years after. This survey is about understanding the ‘when’ of ABDL and how it grows over the years. Formally identifying as ABDL of course involves a degree of understanding of the term and the identity, but being ABDL exists long before we understand it.

IMPORTANT: Note that the A in ABDL means adult and yet all of us were ‘special babies’ long before we were actually adults. So, in this survey, the term ABDL means any age, not just adults. Teen Babies, Preteen Babies and even Preschool Babies.

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* 1. When did you first become aware of ‘something different’ inside you that you now look back on and see as the first evidence of your ABDL nature? It doesn’t have to be an action. It may be just a thought or a wish to ‘be a baby’ or to wear a diaper or some other experience that you NOW look back on as your first awareness of ABDL.

< 3 years

Age 3-5

Age 5-9

Age 10-13

Age 14-19

Age 20-30

Age 31-50

Age 51+

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* 2. When did you first experience a desire to wear nappies/diapers again once you had already been toilet-trained and stopped wearing them? It doesn’t mean that you actually did wear them, but you realised that you wanted to.

Age 4-6

Age 7-10

Age 11-15

Age 16-20

Age 21-30

Age 31+

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* 3. When did you first actually wear a diaper again by your own choice after you were effectively toilet trained. If you were a bedwetter and continued to wear them at night but were day-trained, this could mean when you first wore a day diaper again by your own choice when you didn’t actually need one.

Age 3-5

Age 6-9

Age 10-15

Age 16-20

Age 21-30

Age 30+

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* 4. When did you first begin to experience the desire to re-experience babyhood again in some form or other? It doesn’t have to be a detailed or strong desire, just when it FIRST occurred to you.

< Age 3

Age 3-5

Age 6-8

Age 9-12

Age 13-16

Age 17-20

Age 21-30

Age 31+

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* 5. When did you accept within yourself that you wanted to literally re-experience infancy or elements of it? This differs from the previous question in that it isn’t a transient thought, but rather a consistent, regular theme for you.

Under Age 5

Age 6-9

Age 10-13

Age 14-20

Age 21-30

Age 31+

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* 6. Did your acceptance of wanting to re-experience infancy involve any gender issues? This is not a question of transgender but rather of gender identity difference within – or driven by – the baby drive alone. Many report wanting to be the opposite gender within the baby experience but not outside of it.

When I put on diapers or play as a baby I feel like and sometimes dress/act the opposite gender but only when I do this. The rest of the time I am my regular gender.

When I put on diapers or play as a baby I feel like and sometimes dress/act the opposite gender. The rest of the time I am generally my regular gender but do enjoy cross-dressing at times.

I identify as transgender and my baby identity is also transgender.

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* 7. At what age did you accept with a degree of understanding that you wanted to be a baby again? This is not a question of how much you were wearing diapers or other baby items as that is usually very difficult for young people. It is a question of when you WANTED to be a baby again with a degree of confidence and understanding.

Age 5-10

Age 11-15

Age 16-20

Age 21-30

Age 31-40

Age 41+

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* 8. If you were a bedwetter past the age of 5, what effect do you think it had on the development of your ABDL nature?

N/A

My bedwetting had no effect on my ABDL development

My bedwetting had a moderate effect on my ABDL development

My bedwetting had a huge effect on my ABDL development

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* 9. Did you ever innocently ask your parent(s) for baby items after the age of 5? For example, did you ever ask to wear diapers again or have a bottle? Did you ever ask to go back to a cot/crib?

Yes

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* 10. Did anyone in your family ever facilitate any baby activities for you? Eg letting you wear diapers or have a pacifier etc?

I was never given anything or permitted any baby objects/activities.

I was given a few baby objects/activities early on

I was allowed some baby objects/activities

I was actively blocked by my family from any baby things.

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* 11. Puberty is a hormonal explosion for everyone and it seems that ABDL often also explodes at around that time. Did your level of ABDL feelings or activities increase significantly at that time?

It made no difference to me at all

Puberty made my ABDL desire increase significantly

Puberty made my ABDL desire explode

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* 12. ABDL was a hidden aspect of life before the internet and so even understanding that you were ABDL took time. What age were you when you were first able to say with confidence and understanding of what it really meant “I am an adult baby”.

< Age 12

Age 13-18

Age 19-25

Age 26-40

Age 41-55

Age 56+

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* 13. As a young person (age 5-15) did you ever wonder if there was something deeply or seriously wrong with you because of your ABDL nature?

I did wonder if there was something odd about me

I was concerned that there might have been some mental health issues

I was very concerned that being ABDL might be a serious problem for me

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* 14. How do you feel about being ABDL now?

I am well at ease with it and it causes me no real problems

I am handling it with a moderate degree of frustration

I am barely managing it and it is a source of frustration and disruption

ABDL is a major problem for me

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* 15. How old are you now?

Under 18

18-24

25-34

35-44

45-54

55-64

65+

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* 16. What is your biological gender as at age 3. This is to determine if there are any significant differences between biological males and females in the development pattern of ABDL.

Male

Female

No Answer